Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Postpartum Hemorrhage

I have been wanting to blog about my postpartum hemorrhage experience but I can hardly find time to pen it down even if I had time in between feeds. So I am glad that today Jiahao decided to bring Zoe out so that I can get some personal time on my own to pay off my sleep debt and to do things that would feed my soul.

On the 6th day after I delivered Zoe, I was standing at my house corridor with Zoe in the pram. She was sun bathing for her jaundice and since our house had no morning sun coming in, we could only do it at the corridor just outside our neighbor's house. The confinement aunty was in the kitchen cooking my breakfast, and Jiahao was in the showers preparing for his 1st day back at work after taking leave for the past few days.

I remembered standing there watching Zoe and suddenly I felt a gush of liquid flowing out of me. My first thought was perhaps its just a heavier flow like how we woman feel when we had our menses. But after 3 seconds of that gush of liquid, I knew something wasn't right, it was extremely heavy like a tap and it did not stop. It felt like how my water bag broke. And after probably 5 seconds of standing stationary, I begin to see blood flowing down my legs very quickly and eventually forming a puddle at the corridor. I hurried back to the house, leaving a trail of blood and stood at the kitchen door telling the confinement aunty that I am bleeding. She took a look at the puddles of blood I am forming on the floor and shouted to ask me to go get Jiahao.

I was in shock, not knowing what was happening, and quickly walked to the bathroom banging on the door and asking Jiahao to open up. When he saw me and all that blood, he told me to quickly try to wash off and said to go hospital now. He left the bathroom to get his phone and as I was bleeding profusely, I became really giddy and weak, my vision turned blurry and black, I couldn't breathe properly and was losing consciousness. I leaned on the bathroom wall for support, and waited for Jiahao's return for help. At that point of time, I felt a sense of fear, fear of not knowing what exactly was happening; was it that my stitches broke and am I going to bleed to death?

As Jiahao called for the ambulance, my massive bleeding eventually stopped on its own and I began to regain consciousness. After the paramedics came, I was wheeled off to KK Hospital. That day, my house became like a murder scene with blood puddles and blood trails everywhere, it was a very scary sight and my poor in-laws who rushed over were rather shaken at the sight. At the hospital, the doctor at the hospital did a check on me and told me the stitches were still intact, the check was very painful as its the cervix check where the doctor put her fingers inside me really deep, and she couldn't conclude what happened and sent me for ultrasound. At the same time, Jiahao called my gynae at Mount E and they decided to transfer me over for treatment there.

At Mount E, after my gynae checked on me (again very painful, sob), he concluded that I had postpartum hemorrhage. Postpartum hemorrhage happens when my placenta did not fully detach itself from my uterus during delivery and hence the bleeding thereafter. I was then scheduled for an operation in a few hours time to clean up my womb, all done under general anesthetics. I remembered tearing and shivering very badly when I was wheeled into the operating theater, though the gynae promised me umpteen times that it will not be painful even after its done, there was still a sense of uncertainty and fear all around me.

After the proceedure, the gynae told us that he cleared out some membranes, tissues and blood clots (as big as 3cm) that were left behind by the placenta and assured me that it would not happen again. He told us that this isn't common and from his decades of experience, he only had 3 patients who experienced this and it could be very dangerous when the bleeding do not stop and one can go into shock and bleed to death. Thankfully, everything was okay and it was really painless. I had to stay for a night in the hospital for observation, and that was the painful part because I had to be away from Zoe. Though it was only 6th day from her arrival, I missed her so much that night that I teared while I slept. Thankfully, my MIL stayed over at our place throughout that day and night to help the confinement aunty with Zoe, and that gave us a piece of mind. She knew I was worried, and constantly sent photos and videos to update us on what's happening at home.

To end off this entry, I am just thankful to God that all these did not happen in the middle of the night where I bled in my sleep, and neither did it happen when Jiahao had already left for work and it was just me and the aunty and baby. I am also thankful for my pastor, his wife - Jiahui and our mentor/friend Raj for helping us with the hospital transfers, being there with us and making sure we were okay. Special mention to Jiahui, who kept me company the moment I reached Mount E, chatted with me, took great care of me all the way till I was out of the operating theater. We are glad that we are not alone when things like that happen, they are always people we can count on whether is it prayers, encouragements or physical presence, they are always the 1st few we call and the 1st few who rushed down. We are just thankful that this episode had past, and I am in one piece recovered completely, so, praise the Lord!

6 comments:

  1. After reading your entry, i felt such strong presence of God. Thank God you are okay! Always very happy to read your entries! Keep blogging Mummy Shing!

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    1. wow.. thanks for your comment, I felt encouraged! :)

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  2. What a scary experience. Glad to hear you are better now. I remember having to leave my newborn at the hospital due to jaundice on the 5th day after she was born. I felt so lost and I missed her so much! Take care and enjoy your time with Zoe.

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    1. Hello Michelle, yes it was that kind of feeling - lost and missing her! Thank God it was just for a day and not a prolonged stay in the hospital! Thanks for dropping a comment :)

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  3. Amen to the last paragraph! Yes, Thank God that all is well now! Do continue to take care of your health! God bless!

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